i realized today that i have come to rely on a few things–like dorothy relies on her brown and pink dogs
1) ambien for sleep
2) my old but reliable contraction monitor. it was removed from my room when i started going to l&d for monitoring. we want to use it again and it has been stripped of its parts–the vultures got to it. i wanted to keep it in my room, but it was removed while i was out
3) indocin. they’re supposed to take that drug away at 32 weeks, it can affect the babies. i am deeply afraid that i will go into labor again without it. obviously i don’t want to do anything to harm the babies, so i’ll do what the doctors say.