oh, the tears. sometimes they just won’t stop. usually i’m dry eyed, hopeful and smiley. the other day i cried on and off and then wept with joy at a good report from the doctor. last night i cried while dorothy was here and then again because i couldn’t sleep after i took the ambien.
today i had 1 contraction and i lost it. its totally normal for me to have one every now and then–even uo to4 per hour. but i’m a perfectionist and an over-achiever. i don’t want to have any. they tell me that a contraction every now and then helps the twins get ready for life on the outside, and thats a good thing. but to me, contraction = labor = preemie babies
tomorrow i start my 29th week. i’ve been on bedrest for almost 7 weeks, and i’ve been here for 1.5 weeks. they tell me that every day the twins are inside me is like 3 days in the nicu. just a few more weeks, babies.